Friday, January 02, 2009 ;
9:28 AM
I never would have imagined feeling so empty like I did when the clock struck midnight and people all around me cheered and blew kisses in the air. It's a very damning feeling, knowing that that one particular memory still stuck around, like a piece of gum at the bottom of your shoe. Flick it and it simply transfers to the other pair. Drag it on the warm gravel and it simply gets lodged in deeper.
I need to get a life. I need to forget it. I need to bloody move on.
How do you keep a straight face? How do you forget?
It's unhealthy to be starting the new year with such pessimism and unnatural thoughts, but I figured, they'd come anyway, new year or not. Might as well get it out of my system as soon as possible.
So many worries in my head. How can I ensure that you'll be happy always? How can I ever know that you're better off in here than out there?
Maybe it's too damn early in the morning and I'm sleep-deprived and carbo-laden.
I'll settle one thing at a time. My thoughts will be last.
Then maybe I'll live.
play it softly, so gently♥
